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Have you ever been in love? Disastrous, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart
and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defences. You build up this whole armour, for years,
so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other
stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you,
or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends"
or "I'd like to be alone for some time" turns into
a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt,
a body-hurt, a real "inside you ripping you apart pain".
I hate love.

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. . ~15th September 2002, Seth Judd